Do you have a friend on social media who, on every one of their pictures, uses the same hashtag? I’m sure we all do, but I’ll never forget my one friend who put #grateful on every one of her posts. I remember asking her about it or maybe commenting on how much she used it and often thinking to myself… “How can she be grateful all the time?” She replied with reminding me that as flawed human beings we deserve nothing in this life. If you have that mindset everything really is a blessing, everything is worth being grateful for and even the hard things and hard times are better than we deserve. And for that reason, she chose to see how blessed she was and how grateful she should chose to be… for everything. I’ve never forgotten that conversation (although I have forgotten many other important conversations that I should’ve remembered) and still to this day it comes to mind when I really need to be reminded.
As 2017 is coming to a close in just over a week (crazy right?) I’m taking this time to look back and choosing to be grateful. I say choosing, because it doesn’t come natural and it isn’t easy. Choosing to be grateful for everything that wasn’t what I wanted, expected, or felt like I needed. So, instead of telling you about what went wrong this year… let me tell you about what went right. If you’ve been involved in my life this year, this thank you note goes out to you!
2017 Thank You – I’ll never forget starting the year out so preoccupied with a pending baby entering the world that I wondered why we were shooting off fireworks.
To the beautifully strong woman who carried that baby and I got to watch in awe as she powered thru, smiled while waiting and then finally held her little boy… you changed my life by asking me to be a part of your priceless moment. I’ll never be able to thank you enough.
To the lady who drank tuxedo mochas with me, treated me like her own, made me laugh and helped me realize that having someone who could be a motherly influence in my life was a wonderful thing to have again… thank you isn’t enough.
To my brother and sister in law who trust me enough to keep their children while they photograph people on the happiest days of their lives… you’re allowing me to make memories and fulfill a life long dream. Thank you for letting me apart of your lives.
To the family that we were able to stop and see in Alabama this year, it meant the world to me to get the chance to spend time together. You made our trip special and memorable. Thank you for being there for us.
Thank you to the adopted brother who hosted us this year, took us to the beach, listened to us ramble and vent and always has good advice when we are in dyer need of it. The Lord has used you in our lives more than you know.
To the man who has been patient with me as I’ve learned and am still learning how to trust him again. You’ve handled my uncertainty better than anyone else could’ve. Thank you for loving me all the same.
To the guy who pushes me to run physically, run spiritually, run mentally and keeps me thinking about why I say and do what I say and do. You inspire and challenge me. I hope you never stop pushing me to be better. I love you.
To the brother who still calls, still texts, still hugs me hello and goodbye even when it probably isn’t easy. Thank you for what you do to keep us together. It doesn’t go unnoticed. I love you so much.
To the sister who knows my heart, thoughts and told me to follow my dream in midwifery… Where would I be without you? I’ll never be grateful enough for you.
To the 6 beautiful little kiddos that call me Aunt… you bring so much joy to my life in so many unexpected ways. Each one of you is so special to me. I love you so much it hurts.
To all the patients and their families who make my day, make me laugh and sometimes teach me patience when I need it. I feel very privileged to be a tiny part of your lives/smile and I am extremely grateful.
To the people who, as one of my brothers would say take my blood to feed vampires in hiding, who knew getting stuck with a needle so many times in a year could be fun. If you’d told me I’d be saying that, I’d have called you a liar. Ya’ll are seriously awesome!!
To all the women who have allowed me to be a part of that moment they become parents. There are no words of gratitude that are enough. You ladies leave me in awe of how you handle labor and birth with grace.
To the Darling herself, you know I can’t say thank you enough. But all the same, thank you for the facetiming, for the ten minute talks when we have nothing to say, for just listening, for all the thumbs up, for the leopard laughs… thank you for being you and loving me.
To the woman who simultaneously ruined my life & and yet has made my life better in ways I never expected. You’ve made your choices, you’re living your life and somehow even though you’re not a part of mine physically, you’re still very much a part of everything I say and do. Thank you for what you did teach me…how to cut cinnamon rolls with floss, how to fold towels, and how to make the man in my life an iced tea when he’s working outside. And even though it’s hard for me to type or even say out loud… I chose to be grateful for what you’ve done, for the choices you’ve made, for changing my life forever.